Thursday, October 20, 2005
Thump thump piakthats how my heart was beating the whole morning... last night was so sleepy, but had tons of stuff to do. After doing till 1am plus, I got more and more awake (damn). Then i cant sleep, and worry the next morning cannot wake up in time for classes. The more i try to sleep, the more i cant sleep, the more i worry about waking up late, the more worrying the more i cant sleep (shitty feeling right). So end up I crawled to my aunt's room in the mid of the night, to have a change of environment, cuz my room have the study stress atmosphere. Smelly teddy in hand, I tried to sleep in my aunt's room... still toss and turn till 230am. The last time i look at the clock i remember it was 430am. @_@ In future if u see me, pls dont tell me anything about my black eyes k. Cuz u know why now.
Next morning, waaaa my worry came through. Late lah! Late again, miss bus, got in late. But wad made my morning "better" was that i realised i got 8.5/30 marks for the excel test (triple damn it). Wa liao sianz diao.... pull down my average till below class average lor. My assignments all so high marks also LL liao. Freak lah.
Then the whole mornin my Thump thump piak heart keep going wrong.... it goes this way because, when i am physically tired, and i used caffeine to keep me awake, the clash of the caffeine and the tired body doesnt work well together at all. Its like running on the treadmill till you are so tired that your legs are giving way, yet when u try to stop the machine, the button is spoiled, so u had to keep running or u get flung out of the treadmill.
Guess where i am an hour later? Haha at the gym running not on the treadmill tho. Haha... Feeling better after the workout. But one thing almost make me dead. I was in the ladies changing room and walking to my locker when the pungent smell of dead salted fish (ok they shld be dead by then) fill my area. Some woman's feet stinks like rotten eggs mixed salted fish. Its terrible. Anyway the good thing is i get to see my boi for a little while. *smiles* then we had lunch together, he brough me to this roast duck stall and they had the best roast duck. Ok not the best but its good and had many duck. I'm a poultry eater...
Now i am back in school for another class till 645pm *roll eyes* but later got good food. Dinner at Goodwood Park Hotel. hmmm hmmm life's good for a weekend. Moreover tml not going for classes. Tho i'm still going for project meeting. Now its all projects and more projects.
When you dont feel loved (enough)… you wonder… if its worth it
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